I’m in the third year of writing my memoir. It’s a project that can’t be hurried along, even though many days I feel like I’m running late for the school bus and need a good shove on my bottom to get moving.
I long to get through the schooling in the brokenness of my own humanity, and on to the grown-up life of the promised happy ending. But patient endurance must finish its work.
Over and over I must keep going back. Back to study brokenness, back to study pain. Back to study who I was, who I became, and who truly I wanted to be. It’s like picking up shards of a broken mirror, each reflecting a fragment of me, and trying to piece it back together.
Trying to make the pieces, and me, WHOLE again.
I can’t go back and make some of those pieces pretty.
But I am moving forward, and with God’s help, the whole is becoming beautiful!
The book of my life will be colored by beauty, and not by shame and pain. Because:
God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes. Psalm 18:24 MSG
Praying for God to help you make the whole of your life beautiful too.
linda!
i understand. it took me 4 1/2 years! my writer’s group was my mainstay during the time of what i called “coloring inside the lines” to be sure i faced the truth. god guided my mind and helped me learn how to do this sometimes unbearably painful task. i will be most anxious to read your memoir. i don’t know if you know about mine? self published on amazon.com? Under A Tie Dye Sky. it is a wild ride telling of how our god finally nabbed me! maybe you would like it. you are a real writer, your voice is honest and rich.
love
suzee B
Suzee! I have your book! I’ve only read the first two chapters so far, and I love your honesty and can’t wait to read more! You inspire me to keep going on this journey! Love to you!
The Gaithers sing a song, “Something Beautiful,”
Something beautiful, something good,
All of my confusion, He understood.
All I had to offer Him was brokeness and strife,
And He made something beautiful of my life.
God bless and strengthen you Linda.
Nin–that song is perfect! Thank you so much for sharing, you bless me!
You bless me too!
A soul cleansing message,Linda.
Wonderful.
Oh, yes, it feels that way to me too. Thank you.