Two years ago I wrote a blog post entitled “To Wanna-be . . .Or To Be?“ Confessions from my writer’s desk
I am a reluctant spokesperson for God. More afraid that my weaknesses will fail Him than I am confident that He can do what He says He will do.
A Moses-like writer, a stuttering failure, who carries a pen as a staff in her hand. And God says,
“Throw it down”
“Pick it back up and write. And I will set my people free.”
I dare not believe it. I can only obey.
Yet I know I am different. God’s taken more control, freed me more from self … to be myself.
And I know … I am no longer a wanna-be.
A writer. A fool for Christ.
My words have been set free.
But not to teach.
Because healing words are not from the head. They bleed from the heart … to transfuse God’s love to a broken world.
I pray my future readers will see the drops of blood I shed on the pages of that book today. I pray God will use them to heal, even as I’ve been healed in the writing of them.
And now I pause in my writing to wonder, have you been a wanna-be too? Can you hear God asking you to throw down what you hold so tightly in your hand? The very thing He has spoken to you that He can use to set his people free?
Will you stay a wanna-be, or will you BE?
Yes, that is the question.
I bet you didn’t want God to ask you that question today, anymore than I did.
But He did. Because it’s time my friend,
…bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners,
to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.
I’m praying for you. For you to BE!
The world is waiting for exactly what you have to share.
And so am I.
She read it.
She wanted to BE.
And left a comment on the post:
i SO want to BE ALL that He has fashioned me to be…may i BE, Lord Jesus, may i BE!!!
My friend Jenifer was a wanna-be writer that God led me to through the miracle of the internet, and told He me, “Help her, give her anything you have that I ask you to share to support and encourage her.”
To the best of my ability I have.
Jenifer had a dream in her heart and a calling from God to take up her pen and lead women to DIVE DEEPER into God’s healing Word.
She is being “launched” into that dream today.
And today, I want to say publicly to her:
through tears of joy . . .
you are ALL that He has fashioned you to be…
and may we follow your lead to BE, Lord Jesus, may we BE!
So many women will be transformed by your writing and your heart Jenifer!
Thank you for having the courage TO BE!
Jenifer’s book, DIVE DEEPER: Finding Deep Faith Beyond Shallow Religion, is a unique, interactive Bible study of the book of Ephesians. The desire of her heart is for women to fall in love with God’s Word, and she shows us how to do just that. As part of Thomas Nelson’s new Inscribed Collection, DIVE DEEPER is available for pre-order now.
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